Unit 1 had finish yet another mission. We made it back to the den alive.
“Good job team!” said Lindow, the team leader.
Kota stretch his arm in the air, “that was nothing!” Kota is my first friend and always upbeat. He never fails to make me laugh.
Alisa roll her eyes and smile a bit. Alisa use to take everything seriously. Now, She’s starting to warm a bit to us.
Soma click his teeth. Soma likes to distance himself from others. I don’t know why nor Kota and Alisa. The only people who knew him long are Lindow and Sakuya. Kota heard it and ignore his attitude.
“Hey, Rookie are you with us?” said Lindow wave his hands over my face.
I gave him a nod hearing his response.
Lindow pats my head, “if you have something on your mind, don’t be afraid to speak your mind.”
I gave him a reassuring smile. Kota and Alisa glance at each other. Soma glance over at me and Lindow. I reassure him I was fine. I walk over to the elevator to go back to my headquarters. It never fail pass Lindow that he notice something was wrong. Not just Lindow, my comrades notice it too even Soma.
I haven’t get much sleep. My mind was somewhere thinking about my purpose of being a God eater. I thought about amount of people who comes back and don’t come back at all. Lindow told me to take the day off to clear my head. I went over to my Terminal. I put on some music to see if I can drown into music. Thank goodness it works.
“Care to tell me what’s wrong with our little rookie,” said Lindow put his weapon over his shoulders. Alisa and Kota shake their heads having no clue.
“What about you, Soma?”
Soma looks at him and shrugs. He didn’t know either.
“She didn’t seem like herself for past couple days,” said Alisa putting her left hands on her hips.
“I'm worried about her. We often stay up late at night watching our favorite show. I miss her,” said Kota hang his head low.
“We have a mission not a therapy session,” said Soma not looking at anyone.
Kota hold his tongue. Lindow smirks.
“ don’t be ashame, Soma. You’re worried about her too. Our rookie is not here to show her smiling face.”
“I’m glad she’s out.”
“Ouch,” said Lindow.
Kota burst out, “take that back!!!!”
The Aragamis heard the commotion finding the whereabouts of the team.
“Oops,” said Kota.
“Nice going!” said Soma draw his weapon.
“Well, we can see the bright side of this,” said Lindow.
The Aragamis roar at them. The team disperse and attack them.
I got out of my room and ask Hibari, the operator to the team’s mission.
“How’s my team?”I ask her.
“How you feeling?” She said.
“Unit one are on their way home.”
“That’s good to hear.”
“Hey new type!”
I turn around seeing other God eater types. I’m call the new type. I have these abilities that other God eater can’t do. It’s me and Alisa are the only new type in this branch. It gets tiring hearing this.
“Yes?” I said.
“We have a mission for you.”
“Sorry, not today.”
“No, this is an order.”
I didn’t like their tone. I couldn’t disobey since they are higher ranking than me. Hibari didn’t like what she’s hearing.
“She’s taking her day off,” said Hibari.
“Her day off is cancel. We need her to take on a solo mission.”
I didn’t like taking on solo mission. I'm fine with someone with me in support.
“May I ask? What is this mission?” I said.
“There’s unidentified aragami. We would like for you to defeat it.”
“ no!” said Hibari. “If there’s unidentified aragami, the researchers can handle this.”
“We’ll bring them along with the new type God eater.”
“I can’t do this alone,” I said.
“You’re a new type. You can handle this. Why do you think you are so special around here?”
Ever since I join this branch, the people look at me like this or praise for being lucky to have this power. I don’t like it. I came here to serve under Fenrir and save humanity.
“I'm sorry,” I bow my head in respect. He didn’t take so lightly. I lift my head and he grab my collar. He lift me up from the ground. Hibari gasp.
“Listen here, you freak.”
I look at him seeing his eyes with anger and hatred towards me. He’s jealous of me. I had the power he couldn’t have. Of course......
Soma pulls me in and kicks the guy in the stomach.
“You’re in my way,” he said. I look at Soma on the side of his face. His eyebrows are forward downward. His mouth is crook. Is he mad? Is he mad for me?! Soma is very cold. He hardly ever warms up. He tends to shrugs, gives you glares and says some daring things. This shock me. He save me!?
Soma look at me. Oh boy, he’s angry at me. I'm worse than the guy being kick.
“And you.....” He states.
I close eyes ready for whatever Soma throws at me. I felt a hand top of my head.
“Don’t stand there like an idiot.”
I open my eyes seeing him making a rare smile. Am I dreaming? He’s smiling at me. Soma never smiles.
“Are you okay?” I ask.
Soma turn his head let go of me and pull his hood hiding his expression.
“You are always causing me trouble....” He grumble.
Soma may be blunt, but he cares. He doesn’t want to show it.
I turn around Alisa and Kota tackle me a hug.
“Are you okay, pal?” said Kota.
“You jerk!” said Alisa screaming at the guy that was just kick by Soma.
The guy is lift himself back up to his feet dusting off his clothes.
“Oh, great her circus are here,” the guy.
Alisa was bursting with anger. Kota held her back.
“I will rip you guys apart for hurting our friend,” said Alisa shouting.
“What’s all the commotions?”
Lindow walks in with Sakuya by his side.
The guy looks down seeing Lindow. Lindow is respected in this branch. He save many lives helping them on their missions.
The guy retreats with his crew.
Lindow whistles, “ bummer, I want to see a fight.”
Sakuya slaps his arm.
“Kidding,” he says.
Lindow looks at me, “our rookie feeling better.”
“A bit,” I answer truthfully.
Sakuya tends to me, “want to talk about it?”
Sakuya is like mom to me. I can't tell her that. She might get mad. She rest her hand on my shoulder.
“Come on, I’ll make hot cocoa.”
“Can I come?” said Alisa raise her hand.
“Me too!” said Kota jumping up and down.
“No boys allowed!” said Alisa turning him down.
Kota cross his arm and pouted, “no fair.”
Soma roll his eyes. Sakuya, Alisa and I walk away from the boys walking to Sakuya quarters.
“What a daring rescue, Soma,” said Lindow.
“S-Shut up!” He said walking away.
Kota was confused by Lindow’s comment and Soma’s sudden outburst.
“I understand,” said Sakuya nods her head holding cup of hot chocolate.
Alisa didn’t spoke. She fell silent hearing my problem.
I look at my cup steaming hot.
“Everyone goes through this,” said Sakuya set her cup down.
I look at her, “I just feel...... tired.”
Sakuya pats my hand, “honey, we all been through this. It’s understandable to have these thoughts. You are a God eater. We are fighting our lives every day.”
“It’s just scare me. I just didn’t want to worry you guys about these thoughts I have.”
Alisa wrap her arms around me, “ you are our friend and family. If anything bothers you, we are here for you.”
I rest my head on Alisa’s shoulders, “I'm sorry.”
My tears fall. I couldn’t stop them from falling. Sakuya and Alisa comfort me until I stop crying. It took me awhile to gather my strength. Sakuya put on a movie for me I can enjoy to keep my spirits up. Alisa tries to tell me a joke, but she fail at it. I think Kota is rubbing off on her. I’m happy to have friends like them to keep me company.
“Morning!” I smile brightly.
“Our little ray of sunshine,” said Lindow sitting on the couch giving me a wave. All of unit 1 was here. Sakuya is sitting next to Lindow. Soma sitting at the arm chair. Kota and Alisa rush over to me when they saw me.
“It’s good to see you,” said Kota patting my back.
“Hey, Captain can she go with us on the mission,” said Alisa turn her head over her shoulder.
“Already in,” I said.
Kota and Alisa smile to see me. I was back in action.
Lindow lean in to Sakuya.
“What did you talk to her?”
Sakuya gleam, “girl talk.”
“Come on! I’ll give you a free beer.”
Sakuya roll her eyes, “that never happen.”
“Joking aside, will she’ll be okay?”
“Yeah, we had a long talk. She was having those thoughts that every god eater has.”
“Poor kid,” said Lindow looks at me laughing with Kota and Alisa.
Soma stood up and walk over to the the three rookies.
“Oh, our boy is warming up,” said Lindow.
Of course, Soma say something disrespectful. Kota retaliate.
“Soma got a long way to go,” said Sakuya.
“This is new,” said Lindow saw me step forward to Soma.
“They look good together,” said Sakuya tease.
“Our boy soma and our little sun together?” said Lindow with one eyebrow up.
“Look at them.”
I bow my head and thanking Soma for saving me. Soma turn his head grumble.
“ let’s make a fun out of this,” Lindow grins. “Get a room you two!”
I look at Lindow with my face burning hot.
Soma shouts at him, “we have a mission to start.” Soma walks on ahead. I'm left frozen of the thought of me and Soma together.
“You just broke my little girl,” said Sakuya stood up from her seat.
Lindow shrugs, “ hey, we got a reaction.”
Alisa and Kota try to wake me up fanning over my steaming red face.
I was back to my old self. I fight aragami, come back home alive and have relaxing time with my comrades. Having relaxing moments with your comrades are the rarest. We don’t think about fighting just fun.
“Soma,” I call seeing him drinking can of soda in the hallway of the Veteran’s section.
He looks at me. He didn’t look annoy. That’s a good sign.
“What is it?”
“I need some advice on tactic skills for tomorrow’s mission.”
Lindow assign Soma and I for tomorrow mission. It’s rather out of the blue.
“Fine,” he said.
We went to my quarters in the Rookie’s section. He goes to the terminal looking at my items, God arc skills and materials.
I didn’t want to breathe over his shoulder and watch. I let him do his work as I pour cup of water.
“You have terrible taste of materials.”
I mentally sigh. There may be some sarcasm here and there. They weren’t bad.
“Water?” I show him.
He looks at me and cup of water. He took it.
He thank me?
Soma went back to work. I just go through the books of the aragami we are facing.
I check their weakness and what’s their form of attack. Soma finish what he’s doing and peek over what I was doing. I didn’t notice him looking over.
I mutter to remind myself what weapon I should use.
“Buy some divine bullets,” said Soma.
He surprise me as I look at him. He sits on on my couch with our knees touching.
“You need to upgrade your weapons. They getting rusty and can be easily broken if not taking well.”
I nod my head.
“Items are short. Buy them at the merchants. I can’t take care of you if you’re down. Aragami is enough problems.”
I wrote everything down what Soma says except the sarcasm.
“Thanks Soma,” I smile at him.
Soma didn’t look away this time from me. He stare at me not speaking. My cheeks heat up. Usually, he looks away. He just stare at me. Is something my face?
“You are strange one,” he bluntly says.
And.... He’s back.
“Thanks for helping me. I don’t want to burden you.”
Soma didn’t say word just stood up.
“Oh, you going,” I said seeing him walking over to the door.
He stop his motions. He turns around and put his forehead against mine. I didn’t move. I look down to the ground.
“Look at me.”
I look at him. He looks angry. Oh dear..... What did I do?
“All you have to do is live. I don’t care how many times you fall. Run or shout my name. I want you to be alive.”
His hands touch mine. He looks at my eyes.
I obey. I never seen Soma like this.
My lips were press. I open seeing Soma is kissing me!? Soma! The Soma. I didn’t kiss him back. I’m shock he’s kissing me. He never show any sign of affection. He brush me off just like he does with Alisa and Kota.
When he open his eyes and realize what he did. He pull himself away, turns around facing his back towards me and pull his hood hiding his face.
“What did you put in the drink?”
Did he just blame water for this? I hid my laugh. I wrap my arms around his waist. He didn’t push me back. He place his hand in mine.
“I’m not familiar with this feeling. I never had it.”
“It’s love,” I answer for him.
He shakes his head, “ it can’t be.”
“Why el-” I stop. I don’t want to bring up the kiss. It’s already embarrassing enough I'm hugging him.
I let him go.
He face me. He looks determine. I couldn’t face him averting my eyes from him.
“I want to test this,” he says.
He kiss me again. At first, we were both stiff about it. Couple minutes after, he slowly wrap his arms around me. The kiss last longer. He didn’t break away. I could feel his hand caress my hair. My cheeks are burning and my ears. We both broke away for air. Soma and I turn around. We were too embarrassed to face each other. I fan myself. Soma pull his hood couldn’t believe he just did. I'm thinking Soma and I kiss again!? My heart is beating so fast.
“Uh..... See you.” Soma leaves my quarters. I saw him go from his back side. He close the door behind him. I walk over to lock the door. I put my forehead against the door.
I hear Soma over the door. I didn’t know what to say.
“You too.” I cover my mouth. There goes my cool points. Soma snicker and walks away down the hall back to his quarters.
Alisa,Kota and Sakuya were at Alisa’s quarters and saw Soma come out of my door.
“Did you saw that!?” said Kota.
“Lindow owes me a beer,” said Sakuya.
“We shouldn’t assume,” said Alisa.
Kota runs to my door and knock.
“Open up! Open up!”
I open the door.
“Idiot!” Alisa slap Kota’s arm.
The three stood in my door with curious eyes.
“Is something the matter?” I ask.
“We got four words,” said Kota. “S-O-M-A”
My face heat up.
The three squeal seeing their eyes sparkle.
They pull me inside my quarters wanting the details. I couldn’t run away from them. I spill the beans. Sakuya knew it will happen. Alisa notice I had some type of feeling for Soma even though I didn’t notice. Kota didn’t accept it since he doesn’t like Soma. Sakuya raise the question that I didn’t think of.
“Are you two officially boyfriend and girlfriend?”
I look at her, “I don’t know.”
“What do you mean? You two kiss,” said Alisa.
“Yeah, Soma told me he never had this feeling of love before. I just found out myself that I like Soma. This is sort of new to both of us.
“I just can’t believe Soma kiss you,” said Kota.
“Are you jealous?” said Alisa.
“No! We talking about Soma who hates to party.”
“I do agreed. It’s unlike Soma to kiss you first. I assume you did.”
Sakuya giggle, “ you three haven’t notice. Soma is changing because this little cupcake change him.” She’s pointing at me.
“You always treat him as a friend. You were growing on him. He starts to take notice of you as a comrade even though he hates to admit it. It was cute seeing him watch you.”
“Watch her?” said Kota.
“Have you guys not notice when our little cupcake is down in battle? Soma is the first one to aid her.”
Alisa, Kota and I thought about the missions we face and we did a “oh”
“It was cute. He even save you from those nasty jerks. It’s like watching a fairy tale.”
“I don’t accept this, as long you are happy. I'm happy,” said Kota.
“Tell us if Soma makes you cry, we take a beating for you,” said Alisa.
“Soma know his words carefully when he speaks to our sunshine,” said Sakuya.
“Speak carefully?” I said.
“Soma does speak harshly but to you. He pick his words carefully. Remember when you two first meet.”
I cover my face in shame, “yes.”
“What happen?” said Alisa.
“That’s right! You weren’t with us. I and our pal were starting out as God eater. We got to meet our team. She greet Soma. Soma ignore her. He told her that she looks weak. He made her cry,” said Kota.
“She cry for days,” said Sakuya giggle.
“You guys are terrible,” I grumble.
“did Soma apologize?” said Alisa.
“Lindow force Soma to apologize,” said Sakuya. “Until that time, he use his words carefully. Of course, our little darling got use to Soma ways.”
“His words are not meant to be mean. It’s another of way expressing his words. When he told me I was weak. I realize what he meant at that time. My weapon I have wasn’t proper. I realize that during that first mission we did. At that time, I saw Soma words aren’t sarcasm just his way telling you of his sincerity.”
My friends look at me in awe.
“You love him,” said Sakuya.
I blush, “pardon?”
“Tell me what do you like about him?”
Alisa and Kota nod their heads wanting to know.
“Um....” What do I like about Soma. What...do..I...like...about.
“Smile?” said Kota.
“I... can’t say much details. I like his smile. I want to protect his smile. I want to see it again.”
“Soma.... Smile?” said Kota.
Sakuya giggles, “ we should hit the sack.”
They begin leaving my quarters. I stay a bit studying on the aragami.
Soma knocks on Lindow’s door. Lindow open seeing Soma’s trouble expression.
“This is new. You never come to my quarters?” said Lindow.
“I kiss her.”
“I kiss her!”
Lindow eyes widen as Soma invite himself in to Lindow quarters.
“You kiss the rookie”
“Well, there’s Alisa and Kota.”
Soma glare at Lindow
“I know not helping.”
“I don’t know what’s going on with me?”
“Dude, calm down. You have the cause of love.”
“She said that too.”
“What the problem?”
“I... I just don’t want to mess up.”
“Ohhhh, crushing her heart.”
“I don’t know where to start.”
Lindow start up his cigarette.
“May I ask what compelled you to kiss her?”
“I...I don’t know.”
Lindow whistles, “you just happen to randomly kiss her.”
“No! There was this pain in my chest. We spoke. She smile at me. My heart beat so much. I said something to her. I knew I hurt her. She’s trying so hard. I didn’t want her to be discourage. I just kiss her.”
“you felt bad for her.”
“I kiss her again.”
Lindow cough forgot to puff out his smoke.
“Twice,” he coughs.
“That time, I wanted her. I never felt that. I didn’t want to let go.”
“You have it bad for her. I'm proud of you.”
Lindow realize he owe Sakuya a beer.
“What are you two now?”
“What do you mean?”
“Are you two boyfriend and girlfriend?”
Soma fold his hands, “ I'm not sure.”
“You should speak to her about your relationship to her. If you two miscommunicate, it leads to disaster.”
Soma thought about it.
“I'm still new to this feelings. I'm not sure if I want us to go further.”
“Soma, it’s okay to fall in love. Give it a shot. You might find something new about yourself. Besides, you have adorable rookie that can make you smile.”
Soma chuckles, “don’t think about stealing her away from me.”
“She’s like a daughter to me. Keep an eye on Kota. He’s close with her than any guy.”
“True, thanks for the talk.”
Soma leaves. Lindow smiles, “ I feel old.”
Soma and I sort out our feelings after the mission. We agreed to take everything slow. We were new to our feelings. We didn’t became boyfriend and girlfriends. We just friends dating each other. It makes sense to us. Our friends cooed at us now. Soma will get mad at them. I just can’t believe we are together. I get surprise Soma comes over at night to my quarters and just to see me. It’s funny. He knocks on my door. He flusters avert my eyes. He walks in and sit in my couch. He says nothing. He sits up straight with folded hands. I giggle how stiff he was and nervous. I spoke with him about missions, weapons and items. He seems comfortable when we talk about that.
Everyday, I got to see Soma different side. I love every one of them. When we say our goodbye, he’ll give me a surprise kiss. He was trying to get use the kiss.
“Get a room!”
We pull apart seeing Kota and Alisa peek at the door with a grin on their face.
“This is not a show!” said Soma shouting at them.
They close the door. I hug Soma hearing his heart beat fast. It’s the same as mine.
“I love you.”
I cover my mouth. I look at Soma. His eyes widen. His face redden. I never seen him like that.
“I...um...that...” I fluster. I said those words.
He kiss me. He pull me back inside closing the door not pulling away the kiss. His kiss got stronger all of sudden. My leg were going numb. His arm wrap my waist. My arm wrap around his neck. He pull apart.
He whispers. My whole body melt from those words. He smiles. He whispers to my ear, “you are the only person for me.”